My Pes C recourse's trainees have passed out a couple of days. Sad to say, another goodbye which i have dreaded.

At the start of the course, they are damn fucked up. Carrying a nonchalence attitude and adopting an ORD's mindset, it is indeed difficult to ask them to follow simple instructions. These in turn have led to an accumulation of built up stress and anger in a perfectionist instructor, me.

Thats was when i realize that i could not give them up, just like what others are advising me to do so. I realize that the hard way may negate whatever outcome i desire, thus that explains my mind games with them for almost three weeks.

My efforts paid off, as to me, they have grown and learnt alot during these 4 weeks. I have seen them taking the effort to best in everything, although deep down, everyone know the fact that it is alright for their non-compliance to these basics achievements. They did it, out of respect for me, and out of respect for themselves.

It is also very inspiring when the trainees come forward and gave you a hug, thanking you for everything. Compared to my previous batch, such efforts are non-comparable, thus i am indeed surprised when they said that i have put in alot of efforts that touched them deeply.

For both batches, i have learnt and see alot. I have witness how people change, from good to worse, and from bad to good. Such change have often link my mind to this thinking: why? I have realized that it take two hands to produce a change and no matter how much i wanted to motivate them, they have to let me motivate first. Thus, i am regretful that in my two batches, there are a few deadweight loss that i have failed.

Nevertheless, i am looking forward to my next batch already. This time round, i am striving to produce a more outstanding batch than before, just like how my motivation has surged throughout these few days.

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 4:59 AM