This feeling of emmtpiness, the feeling likes when you doesnt feel right, and the feeling that everything is not gonna be the same anymore.

Sadly speaking, i thought that today work is gonna be the same as always. But with leon and jiangfeng resignation, plus dan dan saddish look this few days, and the really good temper myojo uncle who loses his temper today, i suddenly feels that everything seems so empty towards me.

The once chattery group we are, standing at a section behind ferraro rocher promotion, whispering in tandem at the big white shark.

The normally lame and funny dan dan, who tried VERY hard to learn english, but got mocked by jiangfeng as a result.

The i-thought-will-never-lose-his-temper uncle loses his temper at the biscuit uncle today, and man, it was scary. Something like a volcano eruption, and the supervisor have to come out to break the fight.

Ong changes shift too, loo shan as well.

In just a 3 days break from work for me, i came back to be met with such changes. I know it requires time for me to adapt, for things wont return to its original state. But, i seriously cant cope with the emptiness. The feeling is so surreal, and evvery minute spends there is like a nightmare, or a hallucination, or worst still, a reflection of my normal working days.

MAybe i did really enjoyed myself during work, to the extent that i took things for granted. Now everything is gone, and the desire to hope for everything to return, is really futile, but tempting.

Tomorrow is yet another day, and i bet the feeling wont go away. How how?? It is like losing a very close friend, and i am really tired today, to get past the 6 hours.

I guess changing job wont help also, not even a pay increase. Well, guess i am going to act cheerful as usual from tomorrow onwards, but aurina and serene sure will know my real feelings. Best pals they are, hearing my troubles and helping me in whatever ways they can. Thanks.

And my mum is dead against me working as waiter. Burger king phobia ba.

I am going for a job interview soon, a night job. This time, i think i want to try working in an evironment where everyone is stranger, so that such feelings wont come back again.

I need time to recuperate. Nowsadays, i seldom like to let out my feelings to people, and i kept to myself alot. I kept mum during my driving lesson today, and maybe because of that, i am able to pay attention to the road better, and i have make such great inprovement. Drove from my house to bedok, and from bedok to tampines, then circled around tampines for 8-10rds, then drove home. Only mistake is when i am near my home, and i almost collide into the kerb, as i suddenly got shocked thinking that i am going to pass my remaining holidays, working in ntuc and feeling EMPTY. Oh my, this is acry indeed.

Alot of people going for the bq this saturday, but i dun think i will be attending. Now it is not the time for me to get close to crowds, as it will be a paradox. Feeling so lonely in a crowd.

Guess this post is rather bored, as i am pouring out these 2 days frustration, sadness and emptiness. Mind also empty right now, and i guess i shall have a goodnight sleep, and embrace yet another day.

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 8:01 AM