Things are never perfect, but we can perfect it sometimes. the definition of perfection differs from people to people. Take for example, both Berlisa and I are perfectionists, though i am not sure what her definition is, but i am sure it is different from mine. My definition of perfection is that anyone who is able to draw up the pureness of his inner self and produce a smile of happiness, that will be the most perfect thing is this world.

A smile can means alot of things. Sarcastic, sinister, happy, or empty sad smile. Well, so that is maybe what you all will be evaluating against my post huh?

Well, but nonetheless, what i am trying to get at is: Life nowsdays are monotonous, with truckloads of homeworks + tasks for us to do. For other people who stepped down, i am quite green with envy. I often ask myself: Am i really that busy?

Maybe others said i Am, because i am taking an extra subject this year. Then they are saying that the efforts i am putting in is making me busier than anyone. Well, is this true?

It suddenly dawned on me that i have truckload of time too, to suppy the demand of time. The demand-supply mechanism will draw in such a way that i am able to fulfil all the work i have with the time i ad. But the reason now is that externalities are casuing one of either curve to shift such that we are actually either consuming more time for a single task, or using too little time one a single task.

Maybe you all wunt understand, but to me, this is an enlightment of this week. As I saw people scooting here and there in school today, how JiaoLian sat there sipping his coffee, how Serene, Aurina and me discuss about that ''thing'', it suddenly dawns on me.

But being optimistic, like i am always are, i am sure that the curve will shift again eventually, such that we will be fine. But the problem is, when is the evntually?

Exhaustion, tiredness and sadness. No wonder understands. Take it or leave it, this is the law.

Nonetheless, i realise that i should not show my exhaustive self to other people, maybe because in many people, i am the ''Happy-go-Lucky'' or ''Stress-is-never-in-my-dictionary'' kind of person. Imagine the fact that yur once optimistic friend become pessimistic, who would be optimistic as well? It is like the government. If the govt have no hope in the country, the country will never prospers, or rather, quite difficult.

But, putting a mask over my face daily is never the less an easy task. I am not happy.

Once again, i am drawing into my inner shelf, or as people label ''emo''.

I need cheering, support or even FUN!

Luckily, for the past few days, these have been achieved. But i foresee the day that this post can be churned out from the dark cold caves of the Internet, maybe on that day, it will be termed as the nth post. But never mind, like what Aurina said, life moves on. Life never have times for you to stop. I must be strong like Chewy.

And like Adam khoo, facing each day with optimism.

Signing off as a person who feels lightened up after complaining.

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 3:37 AM