Yesterday was pugilistic gathering, a bbq at ECP. Quite fun, interesting, especially the conversation we exchanged.

Weimin was asking us our aims after 'A' levels, and seriously, i dun have an answer. My life plans ends till NS, cus i am afraid i will die in NS and tata, my life will end there. Seriously, when people ask me why arnt i studying like typical JC students, or why do i suddenly want to learn everything, my answer is the same, my life is ending.

And yup, i got a scary prediction that i will die in NS, and my life will end there. No one knows it, except ziguang and benjamin. Though i have researched into NS area, it does ease me a lil, but not entirely.

And also, weimin said that he hated people who like to 'haolian' after getting good results. Luckily, i felt that i am not in the category. Usually, i compared with my expectation, not with others. If i dun meet my expectation, and if someone try to praise that i have done till so great, i wunt hesitate to tell them, ''Actually, i can do better than that.'' This response will trigger other people dislikes, as they would thought that i am trying to act modest or blah blah.

I never see Jieyang in such a lousy state before. It seriously sadden me, and i emo throughout the conversation, sipping Anchor beer. The usually happy guy, who shares jokes and laughter around, plunge into this state yesterday.

I think i have a drop too many yesterday. My mind was in a blank, and the conversation between weiliang and me went to nothingness. Alcohol really depress my mind, my memory and i could not remember alot of stuffs yesterday.

Nonetheless, i have an overall fun outing, which is also thought-provoking.

Life is full of ups-and-downs. The society is evil, but do i have the courage to face it?

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 11:27 AM