I am hurt, both physically and mentally.

Physically becus of my rashes.

Mentally becus i realise that out there in this harsh world, people are selfish. Family members, best friends and cliques. They shun you, when yu are in need. They nag at you, when they know that it doesn't help much. They scold you when they dun even noe what iks happening. They insult me, curse me.

No words of blessing. No words of advice nor words of encouragement.

I have to endure, the itchness, the scolding, the hypocrism around me and the nagging. Plus, endure the bitterness of the medicine prescribed and the torture of doing tutorials and PW.

It getting worse. And i am angry. Some actions, although not express out in words, can be hurtful. I saw that, i witness that and i heard that. I felt the pain, i felt the burden i caused.

That is why, i will isolate myself. From the Yangzhen kids, from my family and from my friends. You all will seldom find me till i heal.


I dun like being a burden. I will cause my rashes to heal. Prove it out to you guys that this is not contagious. Seriously, how yu all shun me is totally saddening. Touching my stuffs and suddenly say Ewwwww, dun spread to me, diease boy.

This is not funny, as you all dunno how i feel. Uncertainty even to myself, all your words cause me to think that i have an incurable disease that is contagious. I am scared, afraid.

I dared not share this with more people, so that they can give me some advices. But then, i dun want to let more ppl shun me.

My blog, i realise, is the only place i can vent my feelings. It is, a place, where i took no effort to hide my feelings and took no pain in criticising people. That is, my blog.

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 9:02 AM