Well, tomorrow is You-know-who birthday and seriously, i have been looking forward to this day. Hmm, because finally both she and i have reached 17 years old. I wanted to ask her the first thing tomorrow but then, i dunno if this is the right thing to do. Firstly, i suspected that the feeling is not the same as before. It had grown strong or weak i cannot say, because i really dunno. But then, i wanted to make her birthday as memeorable as possible and i feel that well, i have failed. I hvnt bought any bdae present for her since biology test is pressing down on me hard and then the cake we are buying is out of stock. So we decided to act blur and forget her birthday and celebrated on AF instead. IT WAS ME WHO INITIATED THE IDEA.

Shireena said that i am very bad, as well as Qing shan, but do they know that my heart is aching? i tried to tell myself that the saddest she is, the happiest she will be on Tuesday. But issit true? Or issit i just want to see her suffer?

Rumours has it that i am together with huiting. I am very angry and sad that this kind if thing shdnt come at this kind of time. I do not want to show that i had waver. But then, maybe, i have finally experience what i had believed strongly for many years, and that is:

Our paths they did cross, though i cannot say just why, we met we laughed we held on fast, and then we say goodbye.

Maybe it is time to let go of this relationship, maybe it is time i should forget about her.
Maybe i cant do that.
Because to let go,
It is very difficult.

I hope that for those who read this, please do not go and spread around. Because i will turn very nasty. For those who know me, this is nothing, but i do not wish to upset my new friends. When the time is ripe, i will say. Okie, i hv put my emotions on this blog.

Another thing is that just now i went to eat tosei and well, i remembered of how rasina promised to give me sweet meats. But well, i do not want that anymore, because i believed that, once the sweet meet is given, our friendship will be over. I do wish so, because, let me say that, may our friendship be as sweet and strong as sweetmeat.

Cheer up, gavin.
Because life isnt as hard as you think
I knew that you can go through any obstacles if you want to.
Since you always believed Haniffa,
That if you cant, you must!

Goodnight folks, because i will plunge myself into my warm pillow, and let my emotions pour into my dreams, hoping that tomorrow, when i wake up, my day would be devoid of sorrow and pain. Once and for all...

aLm0nD~cUsTaRd blogged @ 6:33 AM